when you think you are matured
23.07.2013 at 3:05 p.m.

when i was in my early 20s, i used to think that i was matured..
matured enough to make decisions, choose a partner, handle situations.
after all, they say that when you hit 21, you are an adult right?
legally old enough to watch R21 movies,
enter clubs that have age limit etc.

But boy i was wrong. i THOUGHT i was matured.
yes,i may be in a way more mature in thinking than some of my peers, but that wasn't enough.
yes, i may have gained experience from my teenage years, but that wasn't enough.

in that stage of life, young adults in their twenties, go through a lot of transitions in their lives...

from school to the working force
from having more free time of your own as a student to being tied down at work
from having cheaper meals to having expensive food (sometimes you have to you know... with colleagues, and even friends who start to have higher earning power)
from receiving money to giving money
from having lots of energy to having a body that starts to feel tired at midnight etc..

even after getting used to that stage of life,
comes the pressure of getting a partner, to getting more experience at work aka rising up in the working world..
seriously, where is the end to this meaningless rat race?

yes money is indeed important, as a chinese saying goes, "有钱不是万能的，但没钱万万不能"
but come think again, am i going to spend my whole energy and life just to earn that money that i can't carry to the grave?

Matt 6:19-21, 24
"19 Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal.
20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
24 No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money."

Of all my poor poor poor poor poor times, even though my peers are earning big bucks and i'm still lost in transition, i never had to go hungry. God has never failed to provide in one way or another.

for the time that i lost to climb the corporate ladder, i gained it by influencing souls. it may not be in a big big way, but at least i tried sowing seeds.

now, let's talk about choosing a partner, i used to think that i was matured enough to handle relationship matters, using my own standards and philosophies.
time and again, God proved His sovereignty in my life, not my philosophies but His truth about love.
i have finally learnt not to compromise my criteria and what it meant by being equally yoked, not just choosing a Christian and that's all.

that my friend, didn't come at a cheap price.

Our characters are molded, when we go through tough times and learn from those lessons.
Maturity, or rather wisdom, comes from knowing what lasts for eternity.

John 8:32
"Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."

even though i'm nearing my big 3, i still do not dare say i know it all. AND the good news is, Jesus is there to be light to my path, so I do not have to fear!