disappointment
2003-11-28 at 10:31 a.m.

nothing can express my disappointment..

i noe he's human too

but i thought he knew better what to do

apparently not..

issit because i dun know him well enough

that he is such person rather than wat i know him as?

or did i place too high a trust on him?

disappointed is really the word now

birds of the same feather flock together..

could it be that he was already such a person

or issit that his buddies influence him?

i know not.

but he's my kor, my fren

can i juz listen to all these

and believe everything

rather den trusting and supporting him?

but the truth is this.

how possible can it be when he already said it himself

i wish it wasn't true too

i wish i didn't hear that too

but surely.. the impression of him

has really been scarred..

not that i judge, cos only God has the right to.

i dunno wat to do anymore

to pretend nothing happen?

now.. we are like in each other shoes..

issit ironic..

he used to be thinking should he believe wat he heard about me.

n in the end he chose to stand by my side..

should i do that too?

but it's really risky

what if you are supporting the wrong, instead of the wronged?

i guess unconditional love.. that's what i learn.

is to go all out for someone.. despite whether u get anything in return

(duh of cos be wise la)

unconditional love.. for a fren... for a sis/bro

requires this much

what more in a courtship?

cg.. was diff yest.

jasmine was right.. there wasn't enough unity..

anyone could feel it..

and it's desperating..