RESULTS
2003-03-01 at 8:36 a.m.

yea basically we all got our results.

i dun wan to tok bout how i did.

yest the whole morning i juz couldn't sit still n remain calm.

but then from the moment i got out of the house onwards to at night or something. i have this indescribable peace in me.. something like i feel numbed.

thank God for that man, cos i prayed for that in the morning, and even able to console those who were crying.

but i realised i should have prayed for joy.

instead when i received my results.

i juz yawned. not happy,not sad.

not sad becos at least i din do worse den wat i did. and becos i didn't noe wat to expect.. so there's no gage of like wat i'm supposed to get, so when i got it. it's juz oh okie, tt's how i scored.

not happy becos well, it's not "good enough". haha mun and i were saying we will feel something if we got some 12 or 13 pts.

really must thank God. Without Him, it would have been worst man.

yesterday was a day of irony.

many cried becos they got 11/12/13 points. they can't get into wat jc course they really want/or they was expecting to get single digit.

but people there are people, who cried becos they got less than 20 points.

N people who didn't do well. i dun see them crying.

... mayb they will. but not publically.

people have high expectations for themselves. even how good they did, tried, they will never be satisfied.

this is human.

take for eg myself. i mean i din expect ani better. but no doubt u would juz feel tt you're a piece of shit.

but good thing was i remember wat k.wei said. no point looking back n thought you should hav done better or stuff like tt.

be thankful and juz accept wat is there n move on from there.

so i do =)

my parents. i dunno but they give me tis feeling tt i feel that they were never satisfied, no matter how i tried

( which i admit it wasn't that hard)

i mean tis results.. haha would have been better if i studied the whole year round n not be so ... slacker?

but WHO CARES THE WHOLE O'LEVEL DAMN THINGY IS FREAKING OVER!

n pray... i'll be able to get into.. mass com.. although i dunno how my chances stand.