it's just one of those days
26.08.2015 at 2:39 p.m.

it's just another of those days.

you just don't want to get out of bed, the weather is dark and windy, you just don't feel like doing anything. unlike the lazy song, it's not like how you feel lazy or lethargic. it's just one of those days.

and you blame it on one of those days, but you know the precise reason, the exact reason why you feel this way. you can't pinpoint why you still feel this way, you try to give yourself lotsa excuses, but in the end, you get stuck in the middle of knowing why and not knowing exactly why.

you dig out an old film, a film that is reflective, something like "Amelie", you skip lunch and have a cider and some chips, trying to unfeel how you feel, trying to cheer yourself up.

after some laughs and reflection from the film, you sit down, logged in to your old diary which you have not touched for a long time and started writing.

you ponder. you wonder. you breathe in the breeze that blows. you look at your quiet phone. you pause.

for a long time. . .

it's just one of those days.

sure, but i'm sorry. you're in denial, because you know it will return again to haunt you when one of those days come again. what do you do? you have to do something about it!

but not today.

because, it's just one of those days...